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她的故事(小说连载二十一)
据说夕阳西下里求婚的成功率更高,因为在黄昏女人的意志格外脆弱。我没有戴手表,不知道自己在池塘边站了多久。peter的声音一点也没惊着我。在意识的一个隐秘的角落,也许我一直等着他来找我。
小池塘里的荷花即使还开着,学生时代的那个梁煦,我也不去了。此刻,淡金色的阳光照着一塘秋水,也照着我的华年。二十二岁,一辈子就一次。嘉伟说我神经大条。他太不懂女孩子了。把自己的黄金时代轻易地交在初出茅庐的嘉伟手上,是不是有点委屈自己呢?
我不知道。
peter说“真美啊”是指风景还是指人?
我没有转过身。我等着答案。
北京的冬天干而冷。小时候最怕冬天。西北风里,只有缩在笨重的棉猴里才感觉到温暖。peter的手,大而温暖,这我知道;我不知道他的胸膛也宽阔厚实,让我可以重温童年缩在棉猴里的感觉。我很放心地向后一靠,他原本虚虚地圈起来的臂膀加了点力度。实实在在的,我在他的怀抱里了。
那天临走,钱老很热情地说:“下次来过周末吧。我带你们去骑马!”这个人倒是真能替朋友预先安排。
进到城里,天已经差不多黑了。钱老的司机将我们送到peter公寓的门口,就被peter在手里塞了钱打发走了。
起风了。我的长发与薄纱长围巾被吹起来。轻轻地,我有点发抖。
“要不要上去喝杯咖啡?”peter轻声问。
我心里犹豫着,但还是点点头。
客厅很大,零星几件浅色家具,清清爽爽的。一个将指甲修剪得整整齐齐的单身男子的公寓就应当是这样的。唯一的装饰是墙上几张照片:jimmy的,emma的,也有peter 与jessica的影。两人头上戴着潜水镜,背景是碧海蓝天。当然还有peter办公桌上的那张全家福。照片上所有的人都笑眯眯地看着我。在这么多双眼睛的注视下,我很局促地坐在沙发上。
peter随手打开电视,将遥控器递给我说:“愿意看什么,你自己选。”
他的语气和眼神触动了我意识里另一个隐秘角落里的心思:我选了,不好看怎么办?
我一按调台键,竟然是cctv的新闻联播,突然间我意识到爸爸妈妈应该在等我吃晚饭。我有点慌,对着peter的背影问:“peter, 我可以借你的电话吗?”
peter人已经在厨房门口,听我这一问,迅速转过身来,看我一眼,一指小角桌上的红色电话,一笑说:“打给爸爸妈妈?电话在那里,打吧。”说完扭头进了厨房。
电话是妈妈接的。她果然在着急:“呼了你那么多次,怎么连个电话也不?你爸和我都开始着急了!”
“跟老出去见客户,呼机关了。哥来了吗?”在家里哥哥是我永远的盟友,此刻我搬出他来打岔。
“你哥今天跟几个朋友玩儿去了。你们兄妹俩一个脾气,有事儿家晚连个招呼也不打!你哥是男孩子还有情可原,你一个姑娘家,也这么着!我今天做了你们最爱吃的红烧排骨,结果一个都不来”我妈听起来是真不高兴了。
“好了好了,老妈!我现在就坐车家。今天我也很辛苦,正好吃你烧的排骨补补。”放了电话,我心里还在咚咚地跳。
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